18 months

It has been over 18 months since I took a drink of alcohol.

In that time I have had a lot of ups and downs. Most of them have been internal. I continue to have a good life. My career, my family, and my friends are all good.  The stuff that goes on in my head though, doesn't always agree with reality. I am learning that some things in my life really have nothing to do with alcohol. The fact that I almost always see the negative before the positive is part of my personality built over a lifetime. How I relate to people on a daily basis is choice I make. When I judge someone else's actions or make a denigrating comment it is a choice. These are traits that I continue to change and have to accept that it is a slow process.

Tomorrow is December 31 and like many people I am thinking about the year past and the year ahead.  2018 has been great to me. The 1st calendar year that I have been sober and I had many fantastic experiences at work and at home with family and friends. I didn't always do a good job of acknowledging those experiences or those people. I don't really do resolutions but for 2019 my intention is to "speak positivity and light" whenever possible.